I really am lucky

It seems every time I turn on the TV more and more companies are laying off people. God, I hope this stimulous package that was just passed actually works quickly. The hospital I worked for laid off quite a few people, amazingly enough they started at the top, laying off 4 Vice Presidents then 22 Director positions, then of course they didn't have any work for their assistants and the assistants assistants to do, so they were let go too. More people were let go today...it is really scary.

I was recently moved to a position that I really didn't want, but they said I was the best qualified for it and if I didn't take it one of my coworkers might be let go and I know that they all want to be recruiters one day, but I don't. It's actually a very good job, extremely busy work, lots of responsibility, great boss, great coworkers, still in HR working in benefits and compensation and I am damn lucky to still have a job. I don't know what I would do if I was laid off, there are just no jobs out there and the ones I would be applying for I would be up against hundreds and hundreds of applicants. So to that degree I am happy that I am still working, I am just really going to miss my coworkers that I have now and really miss my Manager. He makes life so much more fun. Oh well, it is kind of strange that I finally went back to my maiden name and then all of a sudden I have a new job now, it's like the universe is telling me that I need a new start in life and change my life completely.

I really do have to give myself a little break. I need to remember that I am just starting out on this and I am bound to make mistakes, it's okay to make mistakes. I have a tough time with that, I feel like I want to be perfect right in the beginning. sigh. Change is scary. I remember when I started in the position I have now, I never thought I would figure it out, and now it's old hat to me. So I just have to take a deep breath and know that eventually I will get it and I'm sure I will grow to love it or at least like it. So like I said, I am grateful that I still have a job with benefits because I know so many others don't right now. I'll stop complaining and being upset over it. There is nothing I can do about it now so I just need to accept it and make it my own and learn as I go.

It is raining snow outside now. Lots of big wet snowflakes, it looks like it's sticking a bit but not too bad. I hope it's an easy commute in the morning...