I believe that every woman should find a theme song for themselves, memorize it, and always play it in their head while they are walking. Head up, shoulders back, sashay side to side…I see so many women walking down-trodden, their eyes looking at the ground, mumbling answers to people and not looking them in the eyes, never having an opinion about something, having to check with someone else to see if something looks good on them, being afraid to speak up about anything…the list goes on and on.

I feel so sorry for women like that because I used to be a woman like that. It still makes me so mad that someone as outgoing, fun, sparkly, hyper, giggly, flirty, etc. when I was in high school then fell in like (I won’t say love because I really never was in love with him, I loved him and cared for him but I was not IN love with him. I sure as hell wish I had known the difference when I was 21 years old…oh well) with a young man that belonged to a church that women were considered a LOT less than men and their opinions didn’t really count.

I was never physically beaten (at times I wish that would have happened instead because I KNOW that would have woken me up a lot sooner to get out of that relationship, although I would probably be in prison right now for killing him, but hey, free lodging and meals? Hmmmmm) Anyway, Mentally I was constantly put down, the church I went to made me feel extremely inferior, I gained a lot of weight, I could not look anyone in the eye and felt like I didn’t matter. THEN when we moved out here to Seattle, I started to find myself, I bought SARK books which are amazing to feed your self esteem and your soul, I started going to different classes and trying new things. THEN thank god, Ty and I decided to separate, at the time it was devastating to me, I guess I was very comfortable in my own misery.

Now, I am SUCH a different person, I feel like I’ve most of that sparkle back that I had in high school and the beginning of college when I had my punk rock band and loved life to the fullest, but even better now because I know more of who I am and what I want in life and in a man. Soooo, now I try to walk like I have a song playing in my head, shoulders up, head held high, big smile, fast pace, nice eye contact, looking around very aware of my surroundings, I am so happy that I have searched for myself and have finally found ME!!!! (still have a long way to go but I am definitely getting there) I hope you have found yourself too! So what do you think your theme song is?